i am art.

i don't know who i am if i am not creating. i feel like i have no life if i'm not making something. it's a flaming passion that i have recently let burn.

i used to be very afraid to show my art, my designs, my creations, but lately all i want to do is make things and give them as gifts. unfortunately, i'm terrible at remembering to take pictures of the things i make. so, sadly i do not have show and tell.

i've been dying to open and etsy shop. my goal was to have one opened by the end of this month, but guess what? i don't have anything to sell! i should probably start designing more if i ever want to open a shop! i'm calling it BirdBrainBoutique. someday it will be alive.

if you happen to have any items that i've given to you and if you happen to feel like taking a picture and emailing it to me, it just so happens i would enjoy that. : )

stay tuned. someday i'll be famous.

it's friday, i'm in love

Here are some lovely things that I find to be... well.... lovely! : )

This camera! I am so in love with it!



It's an instant camera with pictures the size of a credit card. I'm dying to buy it!

These shoes are so good.

I love a creatively organized space!









What an inspiring way to re-purpose an armoire! The last one is my favorite!

This tattoo is so pretty. : )



I have and always will love this book.


This song is one of my all time favorites. It never gets old.

I am a tree....





Joel Dewberry fabrics are to die for....

What could be better than the VW bus? Except for this of course. : )






This site is fun. : )

For the past few years I have had a serious love affair with sunflowers. They are so pretty. Maybe one day I will share why I love them so much....


Well, that was fun! : )

i love:

My husband.

little letters

Dear Spring,
I'm not sure my wardrobe is ready for you yet so I don't mind if you want to wait awhile.

Dear Darla,
I hate your stinkin' guts.

Dear Dial Up,
I miss the way you sound, but not how you would tie up the phone line and get me in trouble when my parents missed phone calls.

Dear Training Wheels,
You are so funny.

Dear Birds, Owls, Branches etc,
I invented you.

Dear Waistline,
Watch out because I'm going to kill you.

Dear Unorganized Areas of my House,
Don't get too comfortable because I'm about to destroy you and make you awesome.

Dear Husband,
I love it when you talk about comic book characters like I actually know what you are talking about.

Dear Dishes,
Are you sure you are not multiplying overnight in the sink?

Dear Price is Right,
I'm still waiting for all of the cars, boats, trips, jewelry, money, furniture, appliances, and plinko chips that you owe from all my years of winning.

do you think...

Nine months is too long to wait between posts? Um, I think not! (Except, I'm lying, but I just didn't know what to say.)

It's late in the p.m. right now. (Really only like 9:30) I should be sleeping. Church is tomorrow, but I don't feel like going. Bold statement, I know, but I just don't. Sometimes, it's just hard for me to go. Ben reminds me that when things are hard it's probably because they are important. Ben is wise.

The thing about blogging when I'm tired is that I tend to be very transparent, and vulnerable, and real. And it scares me. So why am I blogging, you ask? I don't really know. I must have something to say. I know I have something to say, but I don't know how to say it and even if I did, (which I do.) I'm too afraid.

Does this happen to anyone else? You don't have to say yes if you don't want to. I don't say yes if I don't want to. (Except I do.)

Anyway, I just want to say that I've been learning a lot. I'm learning that I hate a lot of things.

Things I hate: (Don't worry I'm not going to gripe the whole time. This is just part of the journey.)

- I hate trying to decide what I might where to church on Sunday mornings. It's a huge stressful task due to the fact that I have ONE pair of jeans. X that. I have more that one pair of jeans, but only one pair that fits the way I like and three pairs that need to be hemmed.
- I hate having one pair of jeans.
- I hate that my clothes and deciding what to wear brings out all the insecurities I had from childhood.
- I hate my insecurities and my anxiety with a passion but more than that I hate that I let them control me. One day I will be brave enough to tell them that I hate them so much, but not today. Soon.
- I hate that I can't speak when I need to, but speak more than I need to when I shouldn't.....
- I hate that it takes months for me to get around to blogging again because I had such anxiety about being behind. Well, guess what? I'm blogging so eat that, anxiety. Ps. I really hate you.
- I hate that I'm often unsatisfied and jealous and then resentful and angry.
- I hate that I'm not perfect or the best and that I'm always trying to "out do" myself and others around me.
- I hate growing up.
- I hate that I'm sharing all of this.....

I don't want you to think I'm unhappy. Well, it's okay if you do, but I'm really not unhappy. I'm just thinking right now and pondering and wondering.

I'm wondering what I would be like if I worked on all of the things I hate. And learned to love myself anyway. I'm not at all a professional at loving myself and giving myself encouragement, but what if I was?

I'm learning that it's okay to be me even if I'm not always okay with me. I'm learning that it's okay to grow up because no matter how old I am I will always be God's little child, and that's exactly what He wants and just so happens to be what I want. I want to be a kid.

I love being married. I feel like having a husband is like having a great secret. One that is only mine and mine forever, one that I never have to share or give away and one that will always be the best with highest of standards that no other secrets can compare to. I love my husband.

These past seven and half months have been my favorites months of my life. And they have been the most inspiring and educating. I love that I have learned so much about Ben and so, so much about myself. And I love that I will never stop learning. I never want to.

This new chapter in my life is all about learning and love. Yes, I'm learning that I hate a lot of things, more importantly I'm learning how to love me.

The End.

the leaning tower of... cupcakes?

If you know me, then you know that I LOVE to make things! I think it is so fun to make something out of nothing!

I've been working on lots of fun projects that I haven't blogged about yet, but my most recent invention is cupcake stands for the wedding!

I went to the Dollar Tree with my heart set on some plates that I could use for the stands and it just so happened that they had four coordinating plates that would work perfectly! It was definitely meant to be. : )





Great colors right!? I was really excited when I saw them! How are those plates going to be cupcake stands you ask? I will show you. : )







Cute, huh?! I'm not quite finished with all of them yet. I still have to make two three layered stands like you see here and two with two layers and two with just one layer. : ) And I've managed to not repeat any of the same patterns!

A great tip for this is if you don't want any repeat patterns is to pre-arrange the stands before gluing. I just used hot glue, and the middle layers are just candle votives, also found at the Dollar Tree. You can also use drinking glasses, glass cubes, taller coffee mugs or anything else that leaves enough space for the cupcakes. If you want to be really creative you can place flowers, crystals, feathers or pictures under the votives or cups just to add more interest! I thought of doing this but that would mean more dollars and I was being cheap! Ps. All together I only spent about fifty dollars. I dare you to find me this mant cupcake stands for fifty dollars! Ps. #2 I'm considering finding some super cheap ribbon or pearl strands or something decorative to glue around the base of the votives to hide the hot glue a little but I'm not sure! The cupcakes might hide it enough so we'll see. I just like things to look finished!

I may post more pictures when I'm finished will all of them, but if I don't you'll just have to come to my wedding to see them! It's not very far away! : )

rockin robin

Yes that's right! I am a bird and I'm currently chirping on Twitter! (I'm still shocked.) I normally hate and avoid things like this but something came over me and I joined a couple of days ago and already I have considered deleting it multiple times! Lol. It is just waaaay to social for me!

Anyway, if you feel like spying on me my user name is brittersmarie. : ) Don't be surprised if I just up and disappear though! It's in my nature. : )

Ciao!