so serious. (except not)

I have been talking for a couple of months now about starting a blog and every time I've tried to make my first post I have just suddenly felt like it was so serious! Like this is the first post of the rest of my life and I have to make it a good one! I started thinking about how I really need to write about something important because this is number one and it will "pave the way" like it is some monumental moment!

I do this, also, with my journals. I will sit with the pen in my hand for about twenty minutes just thinking about what is good enough to be on page one. I don't know why I ever thought this made sense, but I have even tried just skipping the first couple pages. And can I just tell you that it's still the first page no matter where you start! So I feel like every time I'm starting something new it is so serious! But once I get past the fear of the first page everything is fine and dandy so, why can't I just start writing like it's page two?

I'm still, and always will be, convinced that the first post or page is so serious, but some how I manage to turn it into something so silly! (And stressful and obsessive and ridiculous!!!) In the end I'm just really happy that it's done and over with and I can move on with my life. Lol. I think I take this way too seriously, but you know, it's SO important!! The End.