rockin robin

Yes that's right! I am a bird and I'm currently chirping on Twitter! (I'm still shocked.) I normally hate and avoid things like this but something came over me and I joined a couple of days ago and already I have considered deleting it multiple times! Lol. It is just waaaay to social for me!

Anyway, if you feel like spying on me my user name is brittersmarie. : ) Don't be surprised if I just up and disappear though! It's in my nature. : )

Ciao!

new poem

I wrote a new poem this morning. I was thinking about writing it all day yesterday. It's about a friend of mine who passed away back in 2003. She died in a terrible car accident as an exchange student in Australia.

A few months before she left she came to church with me and at the end of service we prayed together and she accepted Christ into her heart. She was totally changed after that.

Then just weeks before she went to Australia she let me borrow a sweater when we went to the beach. I wore it home and forgot to give it back to her and I've had it ever since....

People do weird things when they lose somebody they love. I had this sweater of hers and I felt like if I were to get rid of it, it would mean that I don't care anymore or that I don't miss her anymore or that I'm just totally over it. I had this attachment to it because it was all I had left of her.

I've looked at it time and time again thinking I was ready to get rid of it, but I wasn't so I would continue to let it hang in my closet until the next time I came across it. Well, about a week ago I decided that I had to let go of it. It's something that I needed to do. I didn't realize it, but by holding onto it and keeping it, it has really prevented me from totally being at peace with her being gone.

So... I took out of the closet and off the hanger. After holding it and remembering for a moment I folded it neatly and placed it in a box of things to get rid of. It was actually a lot harder than it sounds. Since she died away from home every now and then I would think she was still coming back. So by letting go of this sweater it meant I was really truly letting go of her....

Maybe this is lame or weird, but like I said people do lame and weird things when they are hurt. Anyways, here is the poem. I've name it Bright Yellow Sweater. I hope you like it.

please, don't go now
i still have your sweater
the one you said would keep me warm
but i'm so cold now
i still have your sweater
are you really gone?

what will i do
with a bright yellow sweater?
maybe i'll keep it for awhile....
but it's been years now and
i still have your sweater
no, i have not worn it again

all i have left of you is
your bright yellow sweater
only a sweet smelling sweater
to hide my pain

maybe today i will
let got of that sweater,
but today
i just can't let go of you

over the years now
my memory fades now
would i even know your face?
i still have your sweater,
that bright yellow sweater
it's all i have to remember you...

but i'm letting go now
i have to grow now
i have to heal somehow

i'll say goodbye to your bright yellow sweater
i'll say goodbye to my pain
will i still have you without that sweater?
this is the only way...

i'll let you go now...
no, i'm not cold now...
i don't have your sweater
bright yellow sweater
goodbye sweater

goodbye friend...

furniture frenzy

A couple of weeks ago Ben and I went to Ikea for the first time on Mars! (Ten points to the first person who can tell me what movie I'm quoting.) We had such a blast! We have been saving up our tree house dollars for quite a while now and we finally spent it! : ) (More points if you can tell me where I got tree house dollars.) It was so much fun!

Let me just tell you about our Ikea-ness... We went on Wednesday planning on buying a sofa. We fell in love with one online and we just had to have it! Kyle and Rhianna were kind enough to let us borrow their truck for the day. If you recall, the last time we bought an enormous piece of furniture I convinced James that we would have NO problem stuffing the thing into the back seat of his two door car! (I'm totally laughing out loud right now about the situation!) I was sort of wrong so we decided that we would never ever, ever, EVER write a song about The Sibby or be able to fit a couch in the car! (I'll love you forever if you can tell me who The Sibby is.)

So, when we got there I was just so surprised at how big it was! I heard it was a giant, but I didn't know people were serious! Anyway, I was instantly in love. If you have never been there I recommend taking a whole day to go. There is just so much to look at! Thankfully we had already mapped out what we wanted or else I probably would have had major anxiety!

The sofa we loved was not in stock and let me admit that I wasn't happy about it so I sat on the floor model of the sofa we wanted for about five minutes pouting that I couldn't take it home. All the while Ben is being so sweet saying, "It's okay, Brittany, we will just come back for it. I don't mind coming back." Lol. I am such a brat. But, you see, when I have my mind made up that I'm taking a couch home today it's like someone is taking away my birthday when they say I can't have it. So.... I quickly got over it, thanks to Ben, and we decided, "Let's not let the trip to go waste (although it totally wasn't) and buy something else we need!!" : )

This is what we decided on:We were needing a bed frame to go along with memory foam mattress that we bought back in December and this one is just perfect! I think it has a neat look to it. : )

Since we didn't buy the sofa that day we decided it was important to go back and fetch it a few days later! : ) Thanks again to Kyle and Rhianna for letting us borrow their vehicular unit a second time because, like I said, we could never fit a couch in the car no matter how hard we tried! Ps. If you haven't read about the mattress being stuffed into our tiny car adventure, please do! I guarantee you will laugh!

Anyway, sometime between bed frame day and sofa day we also decided we were going to get a dining table too! It's really great. We saw it on bed frame day and really liked it. : ) Meet the table (or the Robinsons whoever you prefer):


Isn't it cute?: ) It does all these really cool tricks too! Here, I'll show you!

Wait for it....

Wait for it....

There it is!!!

Cool, huh?! We really like how the leaves pull out from under the table so we can save space and not have to worry about where to store them. We don't have any chairs yet, : ), because everything is sold separately at Ikea, but it's on our list of to-dos! : )

Okay, now the moment you've all been waiting for... The Sofa!!! Can I just say that I think Ben was more excited about buying this than I was! It is pretty cool... Alright, enough wasting time.

Here it is:

I love it! I'm so excited to get some great throw pillows and a cool ottoman to go with it! Ross, here I come! : ) There is also this really amazing chair on Craig's list that I have been drooling over for awhile now. I don't think many people are interested in buying an enormous green orange and yellow flower printed polyester chair from the seventies. I don't know why.... Anyway, It would look great with this sofa!

Well, there you have it! Our adventures in Ikea-ing! I'm really looking forward to decorating! : )